it's time to be optimistic!

Lately i have been having the hardest time with just ....life. I mean nobody said that life was going to be easy like one of my favorite quotes " it wasn't easy for the saviour how dare! you think it would be easy for you!". With each coming day I find my self struggling and spiraling into sadness so, right now I have just decided every time that I feel down I am just going to start thinking of 3 things that I am grateful for. I am so use to always having my twin with me. Brittany is my best friend and my better half. This year in particular has been horribly hard with out her because, in my family i have always been ignored and have just learned to shut out my feelings and neatly secure them behind a bright welcoming smile. Well I want to be more positive, more optimistic! I want to smile and mean it. I want to go to bed with out ending my day in tears. I also want to be a good example for those around me. I want so badly toj ust have all of my burdens and gloom uplifted like a "back pack full of rocks" i want those "rocks " to be removed. So I have decide with each new day I am going to take my challenges a step at a time and try my best to be and do my best after all " Christ chose to be perfect" why cant I ?