almost there! ...

There's only 3 more classes left of English and i can not wait! i still have a lot on my plate but i am ready for summer. Today in English class we talked about our papers and worked on our E-portfolio's. It was a bit frustrating because it took me the entire class period to open my site to where my e-folio is located. Mrs Frailly gave us until the very last day to turn in our papers, i wish she would just shorten the paper that would help the most. I mean some of the best papers and speeches are short. Just because a paper is lengthy does not mean that it is a great paper. I don't really understand why we have to write 8-10 pages just to receive and A it's a little annoying but like always i suck it up no matter how frustrated i may get after all school is almost over. : )

SO MUCH, IN SO LITTLE TIME! (frustration).

I really wish that all of my teachers would just realize that by giving me all of these assignments is slowly causing me to have a mental break down. I'm not enjoying any of these projects are assigned to me and the only reason why i am doing them is because, i have to. Life is not far because if it were up to me instead of writing papers and studying for exam i would be a millionaire siting at the beach. i only have 4 more days in English and i am so happy! because this has been my hardest class and i am ready for something different. Bring on the summer!

Revising my Hamlet movie paper

In English class today we went over our drafts for our research paper. To my surprise i actually got a lot out of class today. We gathered in groups and helped each other. Ericka and Liz helped me a lot. I was able to come up with scene that go along with my main points. I plan on renting the Kenneth hamlet today and re watch it so that i visual see which scenes fit my points in a more detailed way. I have been ready for this semester to end but, along with it comes a lot of home work and lately i have felt over whelmed with work. I actually don't think that i will be able to be as detailed in my e-portfolio like a was last semester but i know things will work out.

Food poisoning ! ! !

so this week sucked big time! Friday through Saturday and still a little bit this morning I've had food poisoning. I haven't been able to hold water down. I've felt awful this entire weekend and last night was the first night that i actually got 4 hours of sleep with out waking up. Unfortunately i haven't been able to work on anything for any of my classes and i was hoping to get at least 6 pages done for my English paper. I'm just a little over whelmed. Hopefully i will be all smile tomorrow. One good thing is that i get my computer back which is a very good thing because it has all of the things that i need to put in my e-portfolio. It's nap time for me see everyone tomorrow.

very very busy day!

This morning i arrived at school around 8 this morning and i didn't leave until, 4:30. So my day has been very long and i haven't stopped doing school work all day. Its been very frustrating because i have so many projects that are due on the same week and they all involve some kind of a paper. Today i turned in my hamlet movie drafted and hopefully Ms. Frailly will like my introduction and my thesis, so that i will be able to start on my revision. I am still a extremely worried about the length of the paper i seriously do not think that i will be able to write a 8 page paper and it would be the end of the world when i am able to write a 10 or more page paper!
well its late and i have been studying all day and I'm still not finish.

Registration ! ! !

Sense spring break is over it is time to register. The week before spring break i wasn't really sure if i wanted to come back to SPCC because i was suppose to get engaged this spring break but, we talked about it and i am going to finish my degree before we get married which will take a year. At first i was a little upset because this would be my last year but, i had to take those really dumb developmental classes that i didn't need because i had my SAT and they didn't look at them until i had already started the classes. So its just really frustrating and upsetting because my twin sister is getting her associates this year. But i registered today and i am very happy with my schedule so i think that i will enjoy it. I'm taking one class over the summer so that's kind of a bummer but, it will help me finish my degree faster and its online so its not that bad : ). But for right now i just want summer to be here and now!

spring break is over : (

Sadly today is Monday and I am not a happy camper. It was really nice to just take a break from everything. The only thing I do regret is that I didn't really do anything over the break but, I am ready to face the consequences. I have a feeling that today is going to be a very long day unfortunately. However over my spring break during my sleep I did come up with an interesting thesis. All I need to do is watch one more hamlet to make sure that it will work. I really wish that our essay was 6-8 pages instead of 8-10 and that's going to be really really hard for me. Its become very difficult for me to be creative lately. I suppose it's because I'm burnt out. I feel like I'm never going to get a break because I plan on taking 2 summer classes, sigh. well off to class I have a very busy week this week.

saturday!

Hey everyone I am extremely sad because spring break is over and school starts back up on Monday. To be honest i haven't done pretty much anything i have thought of somethings for the English paper but i haven't actually done anything. I know i will suffer but i really needed this break and that i will be able to complete everything that is on my plate for these last few weeks. i think that i am going to sign up for summer classes to speed up my degree. I am ready to transfer. I cant wait for summer and hopefully i will be able to finish this semester with a smile.

Out with the old and in with the new... essay that is

Today is the day that my Hamlet paper is due and i am so happy to turn it in a be done with this assignment. It was interesting but, after a while it gets boring and my brain begins to fry because i have to write about the same thing for about a month. Honestly i think that i did fine and, the odd thing is, I'm not nervous about it. I am hoping that that is a good sign but in the end i will see.
In English class today we watch another Hamlet movie featuring Mel Gibson. Fortunately i have already seen it. this morning i was told by Ms. Frailly that our last and final paper will also be on Hamlet and i will be comparing and contrasting different versions of hamlet, the movie. This new assignment sounds like fun, the only thing that seems to be the problem is the length of the essay, 8 to 10 pages. we'll we will see if i can make some magic happen.

almost done with Hamlet

Today in English we reviewed over our Hamlet Revision. I feel alright about this paper, Ms. Frailly was nice enough to look over it and point out the little things that i needed to work on. My paper is about Hamlets flaws. My only worry about my paper is that she wont understand what i am trying to say in my paper. My essay is due on Wednesday so I only have tonight and tomorrow to edit. I am a little relived to finally turn in this paper because i feel like we have been working on it for about a month. My only concern is how much time we will have on our next essay assignment. Well the positive thing to look forward to is spring break. although i Will be busy doing homework and begin reviewing finals but everything will turn out fine as long as i have faith.

the leaves

the leaves on a three they blend together.

all the same in shape and color.

those that dare to stand out and show there true colors are removed like a wart on a delicate finger and wither away onto the ground,

never to show there marvolus colors to the world.

each year the green beautys recruit look alike's, along with fiery red rebels that refuse to blend.

but one by one the bright colors fall unwilling to blend and fit the mold.

the leaves that change and show true color if remain strong can start a trend.

be yourself there is no need to blend.

Critical thinking ...

Last night was probably one of the roughest nights when it came to English. I was so frustrated because i don't have a computer so i had to write every thing down on paper and i had to figure out what flaw i wanted to focus on and then, i sorted out my support and quotes. All of this isn't hard it's just that this asked a lot of me when it came to critical thinking. Critical thinking is not one of my best skill and its been a very long struggle to try and practice critical thinking. But because the lord loves me, i figured every thing out and i am going to write it today as soon as i get a chance. I may not have a revision yet for hamlet but, i have a pretty descent outline. well hopefully the sun will shine for me today ... or my day may be a bit cloudy. Stay optimistic!

some how

I am without a lap-top and its going to be extremely difficult to get my projects done on time. i wont be able to get my computer back for 5 weeks, and that's basically the rest of the semester but i am trying my best to be Optimistic and to stay positive. Today my American history midterm was to and even though it wasn't by best work i am just so glad that its over and done with. I feel a sense of relive and i can focus more on English and my upcoming projects. I know its not going to be easy but some how i will get through this.

very Drained!

Last night after editing my History midterm my computer crashed! And it so happened to delete all of my midterm except for one paragraph. So all day i have been struggling to re-write both 3 page essays. On top of that i have been calling around so that i can get things sorted out with my computer. I wont get my lap top back in 5 weeks and that's going to be really difficult for me. I am just very lucky to have such a loving father who lets me use his computer so that i can rush to put a midterm together. Wll its late and i am really tired. Ufortunately i have been so busy with my midterms that i haven't extended my draft for English. Hopefully after my classes i will be able to work on it for a few hours. God night.

Starting to burn out...

This is my second English class this semester and i was seriously burned out in November so i' am not really sure why i decided to take another and, it wasn't one of my smartest decisions. Its becoming really hard to regain my motivation after constantly feeling like i haven't accomplished anything and feeling like i am being pushed down constantly every time i try to stand, i just slowly start to give up. I am starting to feel hopeless and just except an "average" grade. It just stinks because i have all A's in my classes and i never made C's until English and it's just really hard for me to except that. The truth is that i am actually trying but, i guess not good enough.

For the past few days I have been looking over Hamlet and highlighting things that I feel hold some importance. Mostly I have been highlighting words like "friend", "honest". I feel like the play is mostly about trust or loyalty or... I just cant put my finger on it. For the past few nights I have been looking over the movie and reading along trying to grasp the main theme behind Hamlet but, I feel that it has a deeper meaning then what meets the eye. During English class i realized that you can just read through because you just wont understand it. In my case, I read along with the movie and I wrote notes and sometimes summarized what just happened so that when I come back to it to review, I will have a better understanding.

I have some what came up with a few main points but, I am still having a little trouble with the structure. Somethimes I whish that Ms. Frailly would just tell us what she wanted us to do, leaving little errors in our essays and less confusion. I am learning this way but, I know that I would be learning more and reciving better grades because, I understand and learn better if things a given to me more straight forward. I dont do well with just assuming or trying to figure what the assighnment is about because that when i just "assume" and in the end I find out that Iassumed wrong and I wind up with an average grade. Hopfully all of my research and time that i have been putting into Hamlet will greatly benefit me.

A very Rainy Friday!

I needed this weekend! I slept in today and it was amazing. i read the through the 2nd scene of hamlet this morning. i am kind of confused on what today for this essay because i am not sure if we are suppose to start on writing it. i also noticed that our paper is 3-6 pages and i am guessing because it is going to be a very difficult assignment. well bring on the challenge!

Hamlet!

We have started on a new project and the topic is on Hamlet. today we started watching the movie and it actually helped me to better understand some of the scene and Ms. Frailly also helped by explaining some thing s to the class. As i was watching the movie i went along with the book that way i could really understand what they were saying and visually seeing ti helped as well because, in some scene if i just re3ad through them i wouldn't have be able to realize what was actually going on, for example in the first scene and how everything was frantic. i would have be able to mentally visualize the scene that way. I am both very intimidated by this assignment and a little excited.

what i wish i could tell you face to face...(just venting)

I am so sick of being treated like a child! You want me to be more independent but everytime i try, you hold me back. I dont have any personal space here. I hate to be at home. I am suffocating in your stubborness and selfish pride. I dont like you as a person but, i have to love you. You are the reason that i cry at night, and the main reason why i am leaving home. you think you know your own daughter like the back of your hand but, the truth is you never new me! and you still dont. Sure we have shared a few good times but the bad out weigh the good. You dont see how your hurting me which is why i cant stay here any longer. Once my last name is changed dont expect me to visit or smile when people mention your name because i will always remember the awful things that you have done and said. sure my bruises are gone but the scares remain in my heart. I'm sick and tired of being your prisoner. I am finally going on my separate ways.

Friday!

today was a great day! I'm in AZ and it has just been a really smooth day. I'm not really excited about Monday because, i am not going to be in English class so, i guess when i get home around 1 i will just drive to school from charlotte and give Ms. Frailly my paper and send it to her Gmail. hopefully that will work because she never really gave me a chance to discuss what i should do. we'll it's dinner time! good night everyone

Venting about my 2nd paper assignment

Writing this paper should not be this difficut. the only thing that i like about this paper is we get to write about a poem instead of a short story. Which by the way seemed a lot easyer. Lately i have been having a very difficult time understanding the meaning bhind my poem. And whenever i feel like i have reached that point moments later i realize that there is still a much deeper meaning. oh well. . .

Almost done!

Who new that writing a paper on interpreting a poem would be so... hard and time consuming. It's not that i dont like this assignment it's just that it can become very frustrating when you try really hard to come up with creative ideas and examples and then try to fit them together and them not mesh well together. Since we had that snow day yesterday i'm not sure when our papers are due. Hopefully Ms Frailly will inform us while in class. tomorrow i leave for AZ and i am really excited to go but, i hate that i will be missing class. I really hate missing English classes and Math classes. Well off to bed it's late.

"i can see clearer"

I think i am actually beginning to understand an assignment in English for once! Of course i need a little help along the way but, i think that my essay might turn out to be ... decent. To my surprise being in groups has really help me because if Mrs. Frailly is busy someone in the group or the entire gruop could help solve the issue. After all "two heads are better then one!". My paper and its structure have progresed and i am proud of my "very rough" draft. I have and plan on spending more time on this assighnment and hopefully in the end my hard work will pay off. I am really determined to do better on this assighnment. It's a lot easyer once i understand the assignment, and i hope once i'm done with my revision it will be smoth sailing for me, and all that i will need to do is edit and style. One can only dream : ) .

Tuesday night

I'm almost done with my draft that i have been working on for about a week and a half. I went onto the Lit website to get some additional information on my poem for my essay earlyer on today. Tonight i am trying to finish writing most of my draft I'm not quite finished but technically i wont be until i turn in the final. Today has been a long day for me and tomorrow is only going to be longer. Hopefully i can stay awake just a little bit longer so that i can at least add one more paragraph to my draft.

something that i found intresting in Art hisotry class that ties into ealuating English-113 poems!

I have an Art history class and we are learning how to evaluate art the correct way. Today during Art history realized that evaluating visual art is a lot like evaluating a poem. Like a painting with your first glance your going to view it as well, what it is or what you physical see, is how your going to view it. But once you understand a little about the authors back ground and the time format you become more familiar with the artist or the writers "prefered" style. And as you continue to evaluate the painting or the poem certain things began to pop out at you that you didn't notice before. So you began to explore and you realize that the painting or poem some how expresses something personal to you. I think that it's amazing how Art can effect anyone if they just start with the right mindset and search in to it with a non-biased eye.

Poem project!

Today after class Ellen was nice enough to stay a little while in the library and help me with understanding my poem that i have chose. I feel a little more prepared for this project then i did the first one and i really want to improve! That is my main goal. My poem is set around the 1700's and i began to really research so thing about wemen's roles in the 1700's and i found out a lot. in fact researching the time frame helped me better understand what the narrator was trying to say or explain. Hopefully this weekend i will be able to produce a very decent draft for wensday thanks to ellen : )

The Barbie Doll by:Marge Piercy ( me reflecting on how this poem effected me).

Today in English we started reading poems and today we read "The Barbie Doll" by Marge Piercy. This poem really disturbed me and started getting me think about the situation in this story and how this happens every day and it doesn't really emotionally bother me until i read this story. Especially the ending when it sates " Doesn't she look pretty? consumption at last. To every woman a happy ending" (836). I feel like what the speaker is doing here is mocking and basically slapping everyone in the face who caused the young girl so much pain. I also picture the quote in a very sarcastic tone.
Americans society today constantly dwells on being perfect and staying tin that standards or trends that may seem categorized for adults are now being presented to today's youth. Which is sadly disappointing because everyone is always talking about iner-bueaty and at the same time that exact person probably doesn't publicly express her true self. Today's youth is slowly corrupting And hardly anyone is noticing or is wanting to notice. But as usual most people feel like if they don't here about then it doesn't exists. And sadly it is happening and it does exist.

Today

I am done with my classes for today and right now i am working on some home work. Tom morrow my short story essay is sue so once i get home i am going to finish editing my paper. Today wasn't to bad except i have some computer home work to do which is a downer but i will get it done and hopefully with a smile. I have a ton of house chore to finish and i just wish that i had more time during the day because i hate doing school work or house work at night because, i feel like that my winding down time for me. Well i am off to go and finish editing my paper.

it's time to be optimistic!

Lately i have been having the hardest time with just ....life. I mean nobody said that life was going to be easy like one of my favorite quotes " it wasn't easy for the saviour how dare! you think it would be easy for you!". With each coming day I find my self struggling and spiraling into sadness so, right now I have just decided every time that I feel down I am just going to start thinking of 3 things that I am grateful for. I am so use to always having my twin with me. Brittany is my best friend and my better half. This year in particular has been horribly hard with out her because, in my family i have always been ignored and have just learned to shut out my feelings and neatly secure them behind a bright welcoming smile. Well I want to be more positive, more optimistic! I want to smile and mean it. I want to go to bed with out ending my day in tears. I also want to be a good example for those around me. I want so badly toj ust have all of my burdens and gloom uplifted like a "back pack full of rocks" i want those "rocks " to be removed. So I have decide with each new day I am going to take my challenges a step at a time and try my best to be and do my best after all " Christ chose to be perfect" why cant I ?

Not! another snow day! (who danced the snow dance last night!)

Boooo Snow ! I love snow i really do but, I dont like it when school is canceled because our paper is due Monday and today would have been our last day for help with this paper. Also I am tired of make up homework for snow days I spent most of my weekend (last weekend) completing them. I seriously would have walked to school this morning just so I wouldn't have to do any snow day assignments. I guess the good thing is that. . . I am not in school but i actually like school. I guess I can just get and early start on my paper this morning. I hope everyone is enjoying their day off from school more then me.

So LIttle time for home work and life!

Hello everyone today after I finish a computer quiz along with writing in my history journal and reviewing form upcoming test I am going to add on to my short story paper. I feel like there isn't enough time in a day. I am also having a hard time with my o'l enimey, procrastination. I also ways have so much work to do and, the bad thing is that I focus on the what can I get done in 30mins and be finshed with kind of home work.

whenever I focus on assinments like that I skip over the one's that envolve critical thinking and actual time to outline and organize. When I eventually come across those types of assignments I find my self stuck and frustrated. I did this a lot last semester and it really showed in the classes that I did that to. This semester I am going to try my hardest to manage my time better so that I can find more time for not just studying but my self.

It's coming to me but, slowy

Hello everyone! this past weekend i have been working on my paper and it has been frustrating as usual. i decided to write my paper on a different short story called "the rocking horse winner" i am a little familiar with this story because i read this short story in my high school English class my senior year. I figured out how i what i wanted to write about however i did discover during my english class that it was difficult for my group to understand what i was t5alking about and where i was "going" with my thesis statment. this was mostly because none of them have read the short story so i thinki actually might need help from Ms. Frailly hopefully she will look over my paper in .DOCs
I know what I want to write about and my main points. I just need to sit down and organize. I think once I go home I will re-read the short story and highlight and write notes. I also need to skim through the passage to find really good qoutes that will help support my arugment. This morning at the beginning of class I was a little confused but after working with my group I have grasped a better understand and I now understand how working in groups effectively can help you with your paper assignments.

Yay! English class!

Hello while in English 113 i added some of my fellow students into my blog spot. I also went to my Doc. in my Google account and uploaded my draft paper and sent it to everyone in my group as well as Ms. frailly. Then i started exploring my friends bog's and reading them and hopefully late i will be able to make some comments on them. Overall English class today was great!

very late tuesday night

Hello today started off as very simple and comfortable but then things really started to become heavy and a little stressful for me. I often find my self getting silly little anxiety attacks from this class and i dont understand why because all of my other classes are just as important? Today after my classes i decided to work a little on english and not to my surprise i procrastinated a little so, unfortunately i am a little behind but this weekend i really need to catch up with every thing especially my English class. However to my surprise i really do like this writing assignment. It really helps with my critical thinking skill and makes me focus. Plus i really have been enjoying the short stories for this semester. I just need to over come my laziness and some how find some kind of determination so that i can really excel this semester.

"the thing in the forest" by A.S> Byatt

I must say that this short story has left me very confused. I have many questions that i wish to find answers to. first of all what exzactlly does the Loathy worm "the thing in the forest" symbolie? My guess would be that it represents something about thier past and war and thier fears it's just really confusing. I also felt like thier were many loop holes in this short stroy like when they mention that the creature took that little girl Aly with a "y" i have a feeling that that was something like a metaphore.

I kind of question whether the two girls actually saw something in the forest or if it was just thier inmaginations or if it ment somthing completly diffrent. For exzample when the authors talks about how peeny is going to stare it in the face and she becomes come and prepared i felt like that ment somthing aswell. Perhaps her the realtiy of thier child hood , past and exsepting the harsh reality of every thing that they lived through.

monday

Today our first draft was due and as usual i feel anxious and frustrated. Even after we talked about them in english this morning and what changes that need to be made i still find my self completely stressed out. I had planed to change my character in my essay to keep the same short story but just change the character but, i realized from one of the example that she had given us today, one of her pre-students had already written something very similar to what i was going to write. It's very difficult to write about a short story and make it sound original because despite what people say a lot of us actually do think a like. Well i'm just going to have to continue to carry on with a smile no matter how hard i struggle this semester. Because in the end i know that the lord wouldnt put me in situations with out giving me way out of them. It's time to buckle down!

The Yellow Wallpaper by: Charlotte Perkins Gilman

For starters this short story creeps me out a lot. however i did find this short story very interesting especially when the narrator says "john is away all day, and even some nights when his cases are serious. I am glad that my case is not serious!" (669). Also through out the story i sensed that she had a feeling that she new she was crazy and even hints to it in a section of the short story about how she is physically fine but not mentally. i feel like she is also sarcastic most of the time. i wonder why she becomes so obsessed with the "figure" in the wall paper?
As the months pass by i saw how her condition worsened and it really bothered me how her husband ignored his wife's extremely bazaar behavior. However in the ending she mentions her husband fainting and then say 's " Now why should that man have fainted? but he did, and right across my path by the wall, so that i had to creep over him every time!" (678). My guess is that when he walked in on his wife he and saw that she really was insane ... i think that he actually had a heart attack because she said that he was in between her and the wall so she walked over him i am guessing until she finished pulling the rest of the "figure" off of the wall. And i assume that if he did faint then wouldn't he have eventually woken up? I not sure i'm just guessing maybe i am looking to much into it.

English 113's first project

Hello today in English-113 Ms. Frailly went over our first assignment. We are to select a short story from a list that she provided us with and write an argumentative paper about how we interpreted the short story and support why we feel that way towards the story. Our first draft for this paper is due next Monday so i have some work to do. We also have to come up with a thesis statement along with our draft. I am a little worried about this assignment because i can honestly say that i have never written a paper like this and i am positive that this is going to be challenging because, i barely no where to begin.
Today after class once i reached my house i started looking over the list of short stories that were assigned to us and i started to mark out the ones that didn't interest me and reread the one's that did interest me. I have a few in mind that i would like to choose from but it's difficult because i am still not sure what i am looking for. I want to make sure that the short story that i do pick i will be able to create a strong thesis statement for it because, last semester i had a couple of weak thesis statements and i had to restart a few of my papers over and over agin and that barley gave me enough time to focus on the body of my papers. I just really want to do this assignment correct.