Critical thinking ...

Last night was probably one of the roughest nights when it came to English. I was so frustrated because i don't have a computer so i had to write every thing down on paper and i had to figure out what flaw i wanted to focus on and then, i sorted out my support and quotes. All of this isn't hard it's just that this asked a lot of me when it came to critical thinking. Critical thinking is not one of my best skill and its been a very long struggle to try and practice critical thinking. But because the lord loves me, i figured every thing out and i am going to write it today as soon as i get a chance. I may not have a revision yet for hamlet but, i have a pretty descent outline. well hopefully the sun will shine for me today ... or my day may be a bit cloudy. Stay optimistic!

some how

I am without a lap-top and its going to be extremely difficult to get my projects done on time. i wont be able to get my computer back for 5 weeks, and that's basically the rest of the semester but i am trying my best to be Optimistic and to stay positive. Today my American history midterm was to and even though it wasn't by best work i am just so glad that its over and done with. I feel a sense of relive and i can focus more on English and my upcoming projects. I know its not going to be easy but some how i will get through this.

very Drained!

Last night after editing my History midterm my computer crashed! And it so happened to delete all of my midterm except for one paragraph. So all day i have been struggling to re-write both 3 page essays. On top of that i have been calling around so that i can get things sorted out with my computer. I wont get my lap top back in 5 weeks and that's going to be really difficult for me. I am just very lucky to have such a loving father who lets me use his computer so that i can rush to put a midterm together. Wll its late and i am really tired. Ufortunately i have been so busy with my midterms that i haven't extended my draft for English. Hopefully after my classes i will be able to work on it for a few hours. God night.

Starting to burn out...

This is my second English class this semester and i was seriously burned out in November so i' am not really sure why i decided to take another and, it wasn't one of my smartest decisions. Its becoming really hard to regain my motivation after constantly feeling like i haven't accomplished anything and feeling like i am being pushed down constantly every time i try to stand, i just slowly start to give up. I am starting to feel hopeless and just except an "average" grade. It just stinks because i have all A's in my classes and i never made C's until English and it's just really hard for me to except that. The truth is that i am actually trying but, i guess not good enough.

For the past few days I have been looking over Hamlet and highlighting things that I feel hold some importance. Mostly I have been highlighting words like "friend", "honest". I feel like the play is mostly about trust or loyalty or... I just cant put my finger on it. For the past few nights I have been looking over the movie and reading along trying to grasp the main theme behind Hamlet but, I feel that it has a deeper meaning then what meets the eye. During English class i realized that you can just read through because you just wont understand it. In my case, I read along with the movie and I wrote notes and sometimes summarized what just happened so that when I come back to it to review, I will have a better understanding.

I have some what came up with a few main points but, I am still having a little trouble with the structure. Somethimes I whish that Ms. Frailly would just tell us what she wanted us to do, leaving little errors in our essays and less confusion. I am learning this way but, I know that I would be learning more and reciving better grades because, I understand and learn better if things a given to me more straight forward. I dont do well with just assuming or trying to figure what the assighnment is about because that when i just "assume" and in the end I find out that Iassumed wrong and I wind up with an average grade. Hopfully all of my research and time that i have been putting into Hamlet will greatly benefit me.

A very Rainy Friday!

I needed this weekend! I slept in today and it was amazing. i read the through the 2nd scene of hamlet this morning. i am kind of confused on what today for this essay because i am not sure if we are suppose to start on writing it. i also noticed that our paper is 3-6 pages and i am guessing because it is going to be a very difficult assignment. well bring on the challenge!

Hamlet!

We have started on a new project and the topic is on Hamlet. today we started watching the movie and it actually helped me to better understand some of the scene and Ms. Frailly also helped by explaining some thing s to the class. As i was watching the movie i went along with the book that way i could really understand what they were saying and visually seeing ti helped as well because, in some scene if i just re3ad through them i wouldn't have be able to realize what was actually going on, for example in the first scene and how everything was frantic. i would have be able to mentally visualize the scene that way. I am both very intimidated by this assignment and a little excited.

what i wish i could tell you face to face...(just venting)

I am so sick of being treated like a child! You want me to be more independent but everytime i try, you hold me back. I dont have any personal space here. I hate to be at home. I am suffocating in your stubborness and selfish pride. I dont like you as a person but, i have to love you. You are the reason that i cry at night, and the main reason why i am leaving home. you think you know your own daughter like the back of your hand but, the truth is you never new me! and you still dont. Sure we have shared a few good times but the bad out weigh the good. You dont see how your hurting me which is why i cant stay here any longer. Once my last name is changed dont expect me to visit or smile when people mention your name because i will always remember the awful things that you have done and said. sure my bruises are gone but the scares remain in my heart. I'm sick and tired of being your prisoner. I am finally going on my separate ways.

Friday!

today was a great day! I'm in AZ and it has just been a really smooth day. I'm not really excited about Monday because, i am not going to be in English class so, i guess when i get home around 1 i will just drive to school from charlotte and give Ms. Frailly my paper and send it to her Gmail. hopefully that will work because she never really gave me a chance to discuss what i should do. we'll it's dinner time! good night everyone

Venting about my 2nd paper assignment

Writing this paper should not be this difficut. the only thing that i like about this paper is we get to write about a poem instead of a short story. Which by the way seemed a lot easyer. Lately i have been having a very difficult time understanding the meaning bhind my poem. And whenever i feel like i have reached that point moments later i realize that there is still a much deeper meaning. oh well. . .

Almost done!

Who new that writing a paper on interpreting a poem would be so... hard and time consuming. It's not that i dont like this assignment it's just that it can become very frustrating when you try really hard to come up with creative ideas and examples and then try to fit them together and them not mesh well together. Since we had that snow day yesterday i'm not sure when our papers are due. Hopefully Ms Frailly will inform us while in class. tomorrow i leave for AZ and i am really excited to go but, i hate that i will be missing class. I really hate missing English classes and Math classes. Well off to bed it's late.